A Mass Exodus of Books

Well, I’ve finally decided to do it.  I’ve given into the mass exodus of books.

See, I had a stack of 50 books on my desk at home as a TBR stack and many of them were from the library.  I was working on a complicated system of getting it under control.  I was only adding a book after removing two books.  I was only adding books that fell into my Master Reading Plan.  I was working on it.

But in the meantime I was also returning books only to reorder them the same day in order to keep the stack like I wanted it.  I like to SEE my TBR in book form, not just a list or a Goodreads shelf.  But then I started to feel bad for circulation and I had to admit to myself that it’s taking me a loooooong time to read a book these days.  Starting on Tuesday, I have been bringing back five books at a time.

I am not giving up.  I have my list.  I have my plan.

In theory, I should only ever have seven books in my stack:

  1. A book from my giant TBR list
  2. A book from the small list I’m working on (currently a sci-fi/fantasy list)
  3. A Book I Own (chosen randomly from my book jar)
  4. YA (whatever tickles my fancy at the mo)
  5. A book by the author I am currently trying to read through.  (Stephen King, currently.)
  6. A nonfiction book.
  7. Any Book of the Month that I may need to get to.

The way this is working right now is that I have FIVE books in my stack.  As I return one, I get the next one on my list.  As I take two off my list, I add the next in my rotation.  Eventually, this will work.

Yes, I know that it’s complicated and I know that it’s crazy but it’s who I am, you guys.  And I have to win this battle and this war.

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Tally Monday- January 21, 2019

Checked Out

None

Bought

  1. Chariot of the Gods by Erich von Daniken
  2. Ghostland by Colin Dickey
  3. Poor Little Bitch Girl by Jackie Collins

Read

None

Reading Joyful by Ingrid Fatel Lee (book), Little Women by Louisa May Alcott (ebook), Something Wicked This Way Comes by Ray Bradbury (audio), Drawing Down the Moon by Margot Adler (nonfic), A Calendar of Wisdom by Leo Tolstoy (daily)

Last week I finished part 1 of Little Women and it seemed like a good place to stop and read a book that I have been fighting to get my hands on and not getting around to for a couple of months.  Joyful.  And I have to say that so far it is completely worth it.  Lee’s book is about the aesthetics of joy.  Once Hubby accused me of “acting like you can hack happiness” but it is my firm belief that you can and Lee’s book is adding another dimension to my somewhat demented Quest for Happiness.

So far I have read about energy, abundance, and freedom and I have actively sought these things in my life.  Since Wednesday, I have managed to feel more joy, even with a migraine and a shitty weekend.  On Saturday night Hubby fell asleep on the couch and I propped myself up in bed and read.  I was using my bed rest pillow and my Welcome to Nightvale blanket and there were stuffed unicorns on either side of me and I was warm and comfortable and drinking a PBR and eating Pringles and I looked around and realized how damn abundant it all was and it made me happy.  I live a very abundant life.  I have hundreds of books and lots of love and anything I could ever desire.  Sometimes I need to be reminded though.

Lee has me going off on all kinds of little thought bursts.  She has me thinking about color and lighting, about textures and shapes.  It’s kind of nice to kick my brain into gear when it feels like it’s been stagnant for a while now.

This week I plan on finishing Joyful and Little Women.  Wish me luck on that.

On Something Wicked This Way Comes: I read the graphic novel version a year or two ago and I can barely remember it.  I feel like I’m having a hard time following the audiobook too.  I SHOULD like it but maybe I just don’t?  I don’t know…

Recallibrating

My theory was that I was going to spend the month of December just “pounding it out”.  I was going to read, read, read and listen to nothing but audiobooks and put my comics and my e-books aside.  One month.  The theory was that one month would give me a little bit of a leg up on the pile of books currently residing on my desk.  And it’s been fine.  Just fine.

Except.  Except.

You know how crazy my reading life was for a while?  You know?  When I was listening to audiobooks and podcasts on alternating days and reading a nonfiction book, a regular book, and an ebook?  It was a little crazy but I also loved it.  I was getting somewhere and I always had something to read and it was kind of like I was in my element.

And so, I am going back.  The books will get read and the stuff will be heard.  Slow and steady wins the race.

Topping Off 2018

Hey, all!

It’s a three day week and I’ve managed to check out four books.  What can I say?

A lot, actually.

I have been thinking about how to blast through some of these books and get myself feeling a bit more in order before the new year.  Right now I plan on kicking out NaNoWriMo (which I am blissfully up to date with) and then spending the rest of the year reading.

Oh, you know that I have to clean and spend time with my family and do holiday festivities.  I am not saying that I am going to be an absolute saint.  I am just going to be a relative saint.

I have two towers of books on my desk, waiting to be read.  And I am going to read them and listen to them and not order anything else for the rest of the year.  I have 38 items checked out and I have 2 holds still out there and I have a bunch of my own books in the pile.  Later today I hope to update my TBR on Goodreads and then I will get to it.

One issue that I’ve been having lately is that I’ve had to return an audiobook without finishing it.  I have 50 pages left of Firestarter and I don’t know if I should wait and finish the audio or just read it.  I’m close to losing 10% Happier before I’m done, too, and I don’t know if I should wait or finish it.  I could knock these out pretty quickly either way.  It’s just all of the other stuff.

Shows on pause.  Video games on pause.  Podcasts on pause.  A month and a week to regain control of my books.

 

Wish me luck!

Self Care and Stopping

Today I returned both of my audiobooks.

Why?

For the past couple of days, I have been trying to listen to myself and do what I actually want to do.  Monday I just wanted to get stuff done and that was fine.  I wanted a beer while dinner cooked and that was fine.  I wanted to make my mom’s pork chops and I did.  Tuesday I wanted to take my time and do some thinking.  I wanted to drink some wine and read.  Sometimes I get so caught up in what NEEDS to be done that I forget to experience joy and I forget to ask myself what I want.

I want a break from audiobooks.  I want to listen to some podcasts and music.  For the month of October, I’m going to do that.

Sometimes the best form of self care that I can do is just stopping.  Stopping the madness.  Stopping the running.  Stopping the relentless chipping away at lists.  When I stop, I have a second to think and breath and consider.  When I stop, I become human instead of machine.

Because I have been stopping, I have been reading.  It’s been wonderful.

I once read something that said, “To have more time, lose track of it.”  This has proven to be true over and over again.

Tally Monday- September 24, 2018

Checked Out

  1. Knocked Out by My Nunga-Nungas by Louise Rennison
  2. 10 % Happier by Dan Harris
  3. Howl’s Moving Castle by Diana Wynne Jones

Bought

None!

Read

  1. Jay’s Journal by “Anonymous” aka Beatrice Sparks

Reading: The Perks of Being a WallflowerDeep in the ValleyMore Hours in My DayNeuromancerSimple AbundanceThe Empowered Mama

Today I spent half of the day chasing down medical help.  Saturday night I did something to myself.  Something.  I mean, it wasn’t anything that made any impact on me.  Right around the time I ate dinner, I don’t even know if it was before or after, my chest started hurting, as in my ribs.  When I took a deep breath it hurt.  I suffered through but by Sunday morning the pain had localized in my lower right rib and the top of my shoulder and it was the most intense pain that I have experienced in my life.  On my way down to the urgent care this morning I cried just because it was so damn painful to sit in the car.  Waiting rooms.  X-rays.  Waiting rooms.  And all I did was slip my top rib and all I can do is take ibuprofen and wait.

At home I fell asleep for hours, tired from not sleeping well last night and crying to much today and hurting.  I almost didn’t make Tally Monday after I promised that I would.  But, look you guys, I was just having this Talk with myself.  I am tired of feeling so miserable and I have to do something about it.  Like, insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.  I’m not working out hard enough or eating healthy enough.  I’m drinking and smoking too much.  I’m wasting my time instead of reading and writing like I should.  Sometimes I wonder what I could produce if I worked on more than one page a day, considering how impressed I am with what I produced like that.  Anyway, I am injured today and can’t work out and I get that.  It’s just that if I keep doing the same things, in five years I’ll be the same person.  And I want to be a way better version of myself by then.

Maybe you noticed that reading was in the pile of junk I need to do more of.  TRUTH!  Friday I excitedly made my fall reading list and I have this giant pile of books and I just want to make my way through them.  Easy as pie.  So I read in the waiting room and the doctor’s office.  I read in the parking lot while I waited for the clinic to open.  At home I told myself that I would finish my book by the time I went to pick up Little Dude.  I finished it!  My next short story is ready to go.  My next book is ready to go.  I am fired up.

I’ve also decided to invest some time and thought into narrowing down my television watching. What I mean by that is that I just want to watch one thing at a time until I finish it for a while.  Then I don’t spend an hour wondering what to watch and flipping between apps.  So, right now, I am finishing up X-Files first.  I have a couple of things I’m watching with Hubby, too, and I am not counting those.  I’m like two or three episodes away from finishing Sharp Objects.

Jay’s Journal was a slog.  A number of times I thought about putting it down but it was a short book and I kept telling myself that it was a quick read.  It wasn’t and it was pretty poorly done.  It was very anticlimatic too.  I wasn’t satisfied when it was done.  At least I can tell everyone about the Beatrice Sparks thing.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower is a reread and I may not go through with it.  We’ll see.

And that’s about all I have to report right now.  My shoulder is starting to hurt again and it’s time to get LD from daycare.

A Follow Up

Hey, do you guys remember Monday?  I know, I know.  It probably feels like forever ago.  I mean, I know that my life has been eventful since then.  In that one day sandwiched between Monday and Wednesday (Tuesday, if you’re following along) I completely lost my voice, went to the doctor, was diagnosed with bronchitis, and also had, like, a pretty great day for being sick.  What did I do with my day?  Well, I made myself rest!  I took my chair out under my tree and read.  I laid in bed and read.  I took a nap and read.  I read.  I read a lot.

And so, I was just writing to let you know that I have solved my problem.

As of Monday night, I decided to go back to my complicated reading system from the beginning of the year.  Currently:

Book I’m Reading: The Customer is Always Wrong by Mimi Pond
Nonfiction Book: The magic of Believing by Claude M. Bristol
Poetry Book: The Best Loved Poems of the American People
EBook: The Arabian Nights
Audiobook: The Dead Zone by Stephen King, and then back to my series
Inspirations: Simple Abundance and Chicken Soup for the Soul daily, Empowered Mama monthly.

Yes, it’s spread out and tangly and all of that but, you know what?  Just making the decision and getting back to it has made me feel way super better.

Also, I have a review coming for you today!